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Hilda Valentine Goneril ([personal profile] theidlemaiden) wrote2022-11-26 05:11 pm
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-21 04:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes with the Doctor! I've been all floaty about it in Solvunn with no one to talk to.

We've been flirting for a while, it started to take an "is this like FLIRTING flirting?" turn a few months ago and then we danced and almost kissed in Ikorr before all the drama happened. And he asked to hang out to talk about that and we confessed to all the things! IDK it's still new and there's a lot of reasons we were both like 'this is a bad idea' but WHATEVER.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-21 05:37 pm (UTC)(link)
It was frustrating! He pulled away before so I was sure there was something there but didn't want to push him.

We both have a lot of baggage and a strong fear of loss. Getting into something when it's easy to wake up one day and the other person is gone, that's a big ask if you've already lost a lot of people.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-22 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
I didn't really expect this to happen so it's all a little insane, I'm not usually someone who gets swept up in feelings. It just sort of happened for us. We had to talk through a lot of rough stuff first, but it felt great when we got past it and onto the same page.

My friend Erik just left and it gave me reasons to pause on all of this, but I don't know, nothing I've tried to say to convince myself not to has worked. I just really want to be with him. So I guess I give up!
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-23 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, he's gone.

[ She hasn't cried out all her tears on that loss yet. ]

He was very important to me. We only knew each other six months but it felt like we were family. It really sucks.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-25 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
No, we met here, but we bonded fast. I do that.

[ She falls for people hard and fast, in an emotional sense, platonically most of all. Julia is a lonely person. She grasps at friends. ]

It should scare me with the Doctor but it doesn't. I mean, I say that, but if he does go, prepare yourself for me sobbing on the ground and needing depression sweats.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-26 02:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Carpe diem, seize the day. We told each other all the worst things about ourselves probably as a last ditch effort to make the other one reconsider, and it didn't work, so we're in this.

Ignore my negativity though, I am genuinely happy about it!
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-27 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh he does, he's lost a lot of people, just like I have. It's hard to keep repairing yourself after every loss, but sometimes you have to. And when you stop wanting to make new ones, it's a bad situation.

Yeah, I've been in a few. I had two ones I'd call 'major' that aren't like ... middle school or high school nonsense. I had a college boyfriend James who is a really good person. A witch who hated me erased his memory of me, but I let it go because he'd be happier without me. The second was Richard, who was murdered in front of me. So you know. Baggage.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-31 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
They're very common in my world. People are encouraged to date around, find a person they actually want to be with for their lives, or numerous someones, in some cases. Relationships and love are very messy, half of marriages end in divorce, but people keep looking for it anyway.

So does that mean you haven't had one?
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-02 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
Did you want to get married?
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-02 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
I had a whole plan with James where we were going to go to law school together and then probably get married afterward, and I hope he did find that with someone else.

Have you considered dating anyone around here? I guess I can't really see marrying here, considering all the uncertainty, but it's not like life is certain anywhere.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-02 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Law school is out since I can't do it here and I can't do it at home anymore, I have other responsibilities. But I'd love to get married some day, yeah.

Oh? That's great! Is it super private or can I ask for details?
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-05 01:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I promise you'll be in my wedding party at least if it happens here!

Ooo la la, a twofer. But threesomes seem like the kind of thing that should be definitely talked out.

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