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Hilda Valentine Goneril ([personal profile] theidlemaiden) wrote2022-11-26 05:11 pm
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-25 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
No, we met here, but we bonded fast. I do that.

[ She falls for people hard and fast, in an emotional sense, platonically most of all. Julia is a lonely person. She grasps at friends. ]

It should scare me with the Doctor but it doesn't. I mean, I say that, but if he does go, prepare yourself for me sobbing on the ground and needing depression sweats.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-26 02:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Carpe diem, seize the day. We told each other all the worst things about ourselves probably as a last ditch effort to make the other one reconsider, and it didn't work, so we're in this.

Ignore my negativity though, I am genuinely happy about it!
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-27 05:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh he does, he's lost a lot of people, just like I have. It's hard to keep repairing yourself after every loss, but sometimes you have to. And when you stop wanting to make new ones, it's a bad situation.

Yeah, I've been in a few. I had two ones I'd call 'major' that aren't like ... middle school or high school nonsense. I had a college boyfriend James who is a really good person. A witch who hated me erased his memory of me, but I let it go because he'd be happier without me. The second was Richard, who was murdered in front of me. So you know. Baggage.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-03-31 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
They're very common in my world. People are encouraged to date around, find a person they actually want to be with for their lives, or numerous someones, in some cases. Relationships and love are very messy, half of marriages end in divorce, but people keep looking for it anyway.

So does that mean you haven't had one?
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-02 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
Did you want to get married?
divinityfrompain: (amused)

[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-02 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
I had a whole plan with James where we were going to go to law school together and then probably get married afterward, and I hope he did find that with someone else.

Have you considered dating anyone around here? I guess I can't really see marrying here, considering all the uncertainty, but it's not like life is certain anywhere.
divinityfrompain: (smile to side)

[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-02 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Law school is out since I can't do it here and I can't do it at home anymore, I have other responsibilities. But I'd love to get married some day, yeah.

Oh? That's great! Is it super private or can I ask for details?
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-05 01:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I promise you'll be in my wedding party at least if it happens here!

Ooo la la, a twofer. But threesomes seem like the kind of thing that should be definitely talked out.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-07 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
Well if you were crying while talking about it, that's not really the best indication of whether it's good for you.

Like no offense or anything, it's just you should be happy to be in a relationship.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-07 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
You'd be the best fit for everyone. You're awesome. You're beautiful and brilliant and kind and funny. They're lucky to have you.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-07 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
I'm your friend because all of that is true. But I know it's impossible to believe other people when you don't feel that way yourself. I get in these moods where I feel like I'm scum and no one should ever care about me. And there's not really a way someone else can convince me, in that moment, that it's untrue. It's hard to ignore intrusive thoughts, but we should.

See, now that I said that, you'll know my first thought is 'I'm definitely the one who is going to screw it up.' The Doctor isn't used to relationships, this is all very weird and new to him. But UGH I really like him. It's so embarrassing how much I like him.
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[personal profile] divinityfrompain 2024-04-08 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Hey right back atcha. If you ever want to talk about your boyfriends. Or girlfriends? I didn't get their info.