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It was frustrating! He pulled away before so I was sure there was something there but didn't want to push him.
We both have a lot of baggage and a strong fear of loss. Getting into something when it's easy to wake up one day and the other person is gone, that's a big ask if you've already lost a lot of people.
We both have a lot of baggage and a strong fear of loss. Getting into something when it's easy to wake up one day and the other person is gone, that's a big ask if you've already lost a lot of people.
๐๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ธ๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ด๐ด ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ. ๐๐ฆ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ช๐ง ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต, ๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ.
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฆ.
[ Especially from what Julia has told her about her past. It shouldn't come as a surprise to her that the Doctor had his own fair share of loss in his life. Then again, it was always the people that smiled the brightest that seemed to have gone through the most. ]
๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ด๐ฆ๐ช๐ป๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต? ๐'๐ฎ ๐จ๐ญ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ธ๐ฐ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ช๐ต ๐ข ๐ต๐ณ๐บ.
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฆ.
[ Especially from what Julia has told her about her past. It shouldn't come as a surprise to her that the Doctor had his own fair share of loss in his life. Then again, it was always the people that smiled the brightest that seemed to have gone through the most. ]
๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ด๐ฆ๐ช๐ป๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต? ๐'๐ฎ ๐จ๐ญ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ธ๐ฐ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ช๐ต ๐ข ๐ต๐ณ๐บ.
[ Claude waits patiently as Hilda finds what she wants to say, as her cheeks flush in a way which feels fitting to that promise of not getting upset by what's said even before she starts to say it. He listens carefully and avoids any sort of strong reactions - or any reactions at all to make sure he doesn't discourage her.
There's a passing thought that if he'd taken longer to contemplate it, this might've been on the list of things he'd guessed. Left him with some sort of impression, Hilda says. While that's something Claude will contemplate in depth later, for now the only focus on that is what Hilda says it made her feel. That it caused her some level of discomfort or pain is something he's responsible for, no matter whether it was caused inadvertently or otherwise.
The mention of Mogwry gets a faint smile from him, but it fades not long after at any sort of tactics here as he brings gloved hands up first to tug her closer and then one to brush some of her hair back to tuck it behind her ear. ]
Hilda, I want you to tell me these things. It's not stupid to feel any way about something and it's not causing trouble. But I think you and I both know you have plenty of strategy in you since it's just one of the reasons I like you so much.
[ Paired with a light tug of her hair looped around one of his fingers, but lighthearted teasing isn't the way he wants to shift this towards. That'd be too much like minimizing something she trusted him enough to tell him despite being uncomfortable and as Claude considers what to say next he keeps his gaze on her. ]
I know they're just words rather than actions, but I meant what I told you that if something was going to change I would tell you before anything else. I know we have a lot to figure out still, but the most important part of that to me is that I don't want to break or lose your trust ever again. I don't want to keep secrets from you anymore.
There's a passing thought that if he'd taken longer to contemplate it, this might've been on the list of things he'd guessed. Left him with some sort of impression, Hilda says. While that's something Claude will contemplate in depth later, for now the only focus on that is what Hilda says it made her feel. That it caused her some level of discomfort or pain is something he's responsible for, no matter whether it was caused inadvertently or otherwise.
The mention of Mogwry gets a faint smile from him, but it fades not long after at any sort of tactics here as he brings gloved hands up first to tug her closer and then one to brush some of her hair back to tuck it behind her ear. ]
Hilda, I want you to tell me these things. It's not stupid to feel any way about something and it's not causing trouble. But I think you and I both know you have plenty of strategy in you since it's just one of the reasons I like you so much.
[ Paired with a light tug of her hair looped around one of his fingers, but lighthearted teasing isn't the way he wants to shift this towards. That'd be too much like minimizing something she trusted him enough to tell him despite being uncomfortable and as Claude considers what to say next he keeps his gaze on her. ]
I know they're just words rather than actions, but I meant what I told you that if something was going to change I would tell you before anything else. I know we have a lot to figure out still, but the most important part of that to me is that I don't want to break or lose your trust ever again. I don't want to keep secrets from you anymore.
I didn't really expect this to happen so it's all a little insane, I'm not usually someone who gets swept up in feelings. It just sort of happened for us. We had to talk through a lot of rough stuff first, but it felt great when we got past it and onto the same page.
My friend Erik just left and it gave me reasons to pause on all of this, but I don't know, nothing I've tried to say to convince myself not to has worked. I just really want to be with him. So I guess I give up!
My friend Erik just left and it gave me reasons to pause on all of this, but I don't know, nothing I've tried to say to convince myself not to has worked. I just really want to be with him. So I guess I give up!
๐๐ณ๐ช๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต?
[ Hilda doesn't intentionally mean to change the subject, but the thought blurts out before she stop it. She hadn't had time to check in on the man that she'd landed unexpectedly in a group with Haelva with in orderย to help process bodies. With the reactions he'd had during the ordeal, she had meant to check in on him but hadn't had the opportunity to. ]ย
๐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ช๐ป๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐๐ถ๐ญ๐ช๐ข. ๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ. ...๐ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ค๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ญ๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ. ๐๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐ค๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต ๐ญ๐ข๐ด๐ต ๐บ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ. ๐๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ.
[ Hilda doesn't intentionally mean to change the subject, but the thought blurts out before she stop it. She hadn't had time to check in on the man that she'd landed unexpectedly in a group with Haelva with in orderย to help process bodies. With the reactions he'd had during the ordeal, she had meant to check in on him but hadn't had the opportunity to. ]ย
๐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ช๐ป๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ, ๐๐ถ๐ญ๐ช๐ข. ๐'๐ฎ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ. ...๐ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ค๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ญ๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ. ๐๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐ค๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต ๐ญ๐ข๐ด๐ต ๐บ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ. ๐๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ.
Yes, he's gone.
[ She hasn't cried out all her tears on that loss yet. ]
He was very important to me. We only knew each other six months but it felt like we were family. It really sucks.
[ She hasn't cried out all her tears on that loss yet. ]
He was very important to me. We only knew each other six months but it felt like we were family. It really sucks.
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๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ข. ๐'๐ฎ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ช๐จ๐จ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต ๐ฉ๐ถ๐จ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐น๐ต.
[ It's no consolation to having someone close to you leave, but it's the only thing she feels she can do in this moment. ]
๐๐ข๐ด ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ?
[ It's no consolation to having someone close to you leave, but it's the only thing she feels she can do in this moment. ]
๐๐ข๐ด ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ?
[ A part of her tenses, waiting for the proverbial shoe to drop. She can't even bring herself to look at him for fear of seeing something unpleasant bloom on his features that would speak louder than words. Instead comfort comes in the form of him drawing her close. The tension in her body relaxes some.
Protests are already on the tip of her tongue. That it's stupid for her to feel this way. That it's awful how she was practically ready to bare her teeth towards someone that hadn't done anything wrong except probably been charmed by Claude. That she doesn't have an ounce of strategy in her; if anything she might possess the propensity to be cunning in the way that's bratty or self-serving but never anything that should be praised. And it's certainly not something that should be liked either. As she finally turns her gaze back towards him all of those self doubts are quickly swallowed, folded away for her to contemplate another day.
For now she tucks herself into him, drawing her arms close around his waist so she can rest her head against his chest to listen to the steady beat of his heart beneath the ridiculous amount of layers he wears. ]
I know you would, and I know you don't. [ And both of those things are something she has to remind herself of. ] I know how I can get. But I don't want to act that way anymore. I don't want to doubt you or make up ridiculous stories in my head about what you are or aren't doing because -
[ She stops herself short, a string of three words and eight letters that she'd nursed for so long now on the tip of her tongue. Except they feel right accompanying her admission of jealousy. It doesn't feel right when she doesn't feel worthy enough of his affections and attention when there are clearly others in Fodlan, Almyra and here that are more deserving. ]
You mean so much to me. [ Her gaze goes back up towards him. ] We mean so much to me.
Protests are already on the tip of her tongue. That it's stupid for her to feel this way. That it's awful how she was practically ready to bare her teeth towards someone that hadn't done anything wrong except probably been charmed by Claude. That she doesn't have an ounce of strategy in her; if anything she might possess the propensity to be cunning in the way that's bratty or self-serving but never anything that should be praised. And it's certainly not something that should be liked either. As she finally turns her gaze back towards him all of those self doubts are quickly swallowed, folded away for her to contemplate another day.
For now she tucks herself into him, drawing her arms close around his waist so she can rest her head against his chest to listen to the steady beat of his heart beneath the ridiculous amount of layers he wears. ]
I know you would, and I know you don't. [ And both of those things are something she has to remind herself of. ] I know how I can get. But I don't want to act that way anymore. I don't want to doubt you or make up ridiculous stories in my head about what you are or aren't doing because -
[ She stops herself short, a string of three words and eight letters that she'd nursed for so long now on the tip of her tongue. Except they feel right accompanying her admission of jealousy. It doesn't feel right when she doesn't feel worthy enough of his affections and attention when there are clearly others in Fodlan, Almyra and here that are more deserving. ]
You mean so much to me. [ Her gaze goes back up towards him. ] We mean so much to me.
[ As she curls into him, Claude's arms go around her as well in what's almost an automatic reaction. The kind which feels right, like an instinct that'd always been there just as in so many years ago when it was he'd first realized it felt like the empty spaces around him were made for her to fit into. And she had so seamlessly in a way that no one ever had, and so much so that he could do nothing but marvel at the simplicity of it in a way which had made him never want to let go. That belief had never once wavered, not even in their jagged separation here where they'd only ached with loss, and it doesn't now either.
Claude leans down to kiss the top of her head and considers resting his chin on top of it, but decides against it to watch what he can see of her face while she talks. It works out since when her words abruptly stop, there's a second where his breath inaudibly catches in his throat and even for all of his control over everything he projects, he forgets to inhale again. The absence of what follows he hears loud and clear.
Or - does he? Is it wishful thinking, just a product of that all important phrase resonating somewhere inside of him with a truth he'd long ago stopped denying to himself? It's difficult to not think of something Sylvain had told him months ago, something that'd all but confirm it. Something Claude still hears now said in what Hilda tells him: the same thing, just in different words. An admission from either one of them which will take time - something beyond worth waiting for. ]
You mean so much to me, too. And so do we, and for what we have with Sylvain as well. I care about you for who you are, Hilda. Not for who you think you should be but for all of you, no matter what. We'll just have to work on everything else together now that we can, but I believe in us.
Claude leans down to kiss the top of her head and considers resting his chin on top of it, but decides against it to watch what he can see of her face while she talks. It works out since when her words abruptly stop, there's a second where his breath inaudibly catches in his throat and even for all of his control over everything he projects, he forgets to inhale again. The absence of what follows he hears loud and clear.
Or - does he? Is it wishful thinking, just a product of that all important phrase resonating somewhere inside of him with a truth he'd long ago stopped denying to himself? It's difficult to not think of something Sylvain had told him months ago, something that'd all but confirm it. Something Claude still hears now said in what Hilda tells him: the same thing, just in different words. An admission from either one of them which will take time - something beyond worth waiting for. ]
You mean so much to me, too. And so do we, and for what we have with Sylvain as well. I care about you for who you are, Hilda. Not for who you think you should be but for all of you, no matter what. We'll just have to work on everything else together now that we can, but I believe in us.
[ Hilda's propensity to selectively forget or purposefully ignore things that she definitely notices has never failed her - especially over the last several years of her life that were spent at the Academy and then at war. Conveniently it's glossed over any sign, gesture or meaning that might lead her to think that Claude cared deeply in the same way that she did.ย It was knowledge that wouldn't serve either of them in the times they lived in.
Despite her hopes to remain untethered, unbothered and free even that wish is kept within a glass box where she sits on display; she knows the role for youngest - and only - daughters like her in Fodlan. It was likely going to end up in marriage to someone whose family still held some social status or other that would best benefit both of their families than for love. To even have an inkling of hope that Claude felt anything deeper than affection beyond the realm of like fed daydreams of a child that she was beginning to see needed to grow up.
It's a bitter truth to swallow, one that some days she desperately digs her claws into in an attempt to hold onto fleeting days of innocence. At the very least, it's made sweeter by the fact that Abraxas has brought her something that she might very well never have in Fodlan. Perhaps that was enough for now. The rest, no matter how daunting, could follow.
Even if the words he offers don't help shift her views they still manage to warm her some and dispel some of the static at the back of her neck. It pulls a smile to her lips, one that she hopes seems more tender and watery than rueful. ]ย
Work? But you know how much I hate work. [ She sighs, meaning to break up some of the mood because there's only so much melancholy she can bear. The winter had bled into her heart weighing it down and she wanted nothing more than to chase it away again. The smile still lingers at the corner of her lips as she reaches up to brush her mittened thumb against his cheek. ] But I guess if you two are there to do most of it then it might not be so bad.
[ But quietly she knows that she'd do the same. If not for her, then for them. ]
Despite her hopes to remain untethered, unbothered and free even that wish is kept within a glass box where she sits on display; she knows the role for youngest - and only - daughters like her in Fodlan. It was likely going to end up in marriage to someone whose family still held some social status or other that would best benefit both of their families than for love. To even have an inkling of hope that Claude felt anything deeper than affection beyond the realm of like fed daydreams of a child that she was beginning to see needed to grow up.
It's a bitter truth to swallow, one that some days she desperately digs her claws into in an attempt to hold onto fleeting days of innocence. At the very least, it's made sweeter by the fact that Abraxas has brought her something that she might very well never have in Fodlan. Perhaps that was enough for now. The rest, no matter how daunting, could follow.
Even if the words he offers don't help shift her views they still manage to warm her some and dispel some of the static at the back of her neck. It pulls a smile to her lips, one that she hopes seems more tender and watery than rueful. ]ย
Work? But you know how much I hate work. [ She sighs, meaning to break up some of the mood because there's only so much melancholy she can bear. The winter had bled into her heart weighing it down and she wanted nothing more than to chase it away again. The smile still lingers at the corner of her lips as she reaches up to brush her mittened thumb against his cheek. ] But I guess if you two are there to do most of it then it might not be so bad.
[ But quietly she knows that she'd do the same. If not for her, then for them. ]
No, we met here, but we bonded fast. I do that.
[ She falls for people hard and fast, in an emotional sense, platonically most of all. Julia is a lonely person. She grasps at friends. ]
It should scare me with the Doctor but it doesn't. I mean, I say that, but if he does go, prepare yourself for me sobbing on the ground and needing depression sweats.
[ She falls for people hard and fast, in an emotional sense, platonically most of all. Julia is a lonely person. She grasps at friends. ]
It should scare me with the Doctor but it doesn't. I mean, I say that, but if he does go, prepare yourself for me sobbing on the ground and needing depression sweats.
[ She doesn't think there's anything wrong with that. Especially when there's feeling and truth behind those bonds. In fact, it's admirable that she thinks people have the propensity to hold so much room in their hearts for others. ]
๐๐ฆ๐บ! ๐๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ข๐บ? ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ด๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ด ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ.
[ But of course it goes without saying that she'll be there to pick her off the ground and sit there with her for however long she needed. ]
๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ข ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ. ...๐ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ค๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ญ๐บ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ต ๐ช๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ณ๐ด๐ต ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต'๐ด ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ณ๐ด๐ต ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ. ๐๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ช๐ป๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ช๐ป๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ.
๐๐ฆ๐บ! ๐๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ข๐บ? ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ด๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ๐บ ๐ต๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ด ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ.
[ But of course it goes without saying that she'll be there to pick her off the ground and sit there with her for however long she needed. ]
๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ข ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ. ...๐ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ค๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ญ๐บ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ต ๐ช๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ณ๐ด๐ต ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต'๐ด ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ง๐ต ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ณ๐ด๐ต ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ. ๐๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ช๐ป๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ช๐ป๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ.
Carpe diem, seize the day. We told each other all the worst things about ourselves probably as a last ditch effort to make the other one reconsider, and it didn't work, so we're in this.
Ignore my negativity though, I am genuinely happy about it!
Ignore my negativity though, I am genuinely happy about it!
๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐จ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ. ๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ช๐ด๐ต๐ช๐ค. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต'๐ด ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ข๐ด ๐ช๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ...๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ, ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ด๐ช๐ต๐ถ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ.
๐ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐๐ฐ๐ค๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ. ๐๐ต ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐'๐ฎ ๐จ๐ญ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ง๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ.
๐๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฑ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ? ๐๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ช๐ณ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ข๐ด๐ฌ?
๐ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐๐ฐ๐ค๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ. ๐๐ต ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐'๐ฎ ๐จ๐ญ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ง๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ.
๐๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฑ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ? ๐๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ช๐ณ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ข๐ด๐ฌ?
Oh he does, he's lost a lot of people, just like I have. It's hard to keep repairing yourself after every loss, but sometimes you have to. And when you stop wanting to make new ones, it's a bad situation.
Yeah, I've been in a few. I had two ones I'd call 'major' that aren't like ... middle school or high school nonsense. I had a college boyfriend James who is a really good person. A witch who hated me erased his memory of me, but I let it go because he'd be happier without me. The second was Richard, who was murdered in front of me. So you know. Baggage.
Yeah, I've been in a few. I had two ones I'd call 'major' that aren't like ... middle school or high school nonsense. I had a college boyfriend James who is a really good person. A witch who hated me erased his memory of me, but I let it go because he'd be happier without me. The second was Richard, who was murdered in front of me. So you know. Baggage.
[ In the same instant Hilda sighs Claude can't help but laugh following that familiar refrain when it's one he's heard her say so many times before for so many reasons. Something constant he can count on and one after all these years he's still not tired of; though once she might've meant those words it's difficult to believe them these days when there's so much that's come to pass.
They're not a real protest but the echo of one. Of that much he's certain even if they're said here to put the weight of what needs to be done onto him and Sylvain, and even more so when Claude's even more certain Hilda would do just as much even if not asked. There's been proof of that over these last few months where things were slow to mend until that decisive point on which the three of them had talked in great detail, and in what's been cemented since.
Here now, too, as he leans his face into her hand with a smile settling on his face once laughter fades out. ]
I'll take it into consideration, unless by 'work' you mean leaving me out here in the cold to freeze over and over. Maybe next time we could visit Goneril in the summer since I bet it's just as beautiful without the snow.
[ Not that he minds it so much while being here with Hilda, but it feels right to bookend one familiar complaint with another... or rather, for maybe the twentieth time in the past hour when it comes to their surroundings. What Claude doesn't do is move like he might have any other time in avoiding weather he finds less than pleasant. Not this time when this is who he wants to be here with, and the only movement involves staying where he is to lean down with that smile still present for a kiss. ]
They're not a real protest but the echo of one. Of that much he's certain even if they're said here to put the weight of what needs to be done onto him and Sylvain, and even more so when Claude's even more certain Hilda would do just as much even if not asked. There's been proof of that over these last few months where things were slow to mend until that decisive point on which the three of them had talked in great detail, and in what's been cemented since.
Here now, too, as he leans his face into her hand with a smile settling on his face once laughter fades out. ]
I'll take it into consideration, unless by 'work' you mean leaving me out here in the cold to freeze over and over. Maybe next time we could visit Goneril in the summer since I bet it's just as beautiful without the snow.
[ Not that he minds it so much while being here with Hilda, but it feels right to bookend one familiar complaint with another... or rather, for maybe the twentieth time in the past hour when it comes to their surroundings. What Claude doesn't do is move like he might have any other time in avoiding weather he finds less than pleasant. Not this time when this is who he wants to be here with, and the only movement involves staying where he is to lean down with that smile still present for a kiss. ]
...๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ช๐ต๐ฆ๐ญ๐บ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ด๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ ๐ข๐ด๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฒ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ.
[ Even if she isn't entirely certain what middle school or high school are. Are they schools that you have to climb to in order to attend? Come to think of it Eddie or Wanda or Adrienne might have mentioned it in passing. ]
๐๐ฆ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐ด ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐๐ง ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ค๐ฉ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ด ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ค๐ณ๐ฐ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ'๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ.
๐๐ถ๐ญ๐ต๐ช๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฑ๐ด ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐บ๐ฑ๐ช๐ค๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ. ๐๐ฏ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ข๐จ๐ฆ.
[ Even if she isn't entirely certain what middle school or high school are. Are they schools that you have to climb to in order to attend? Come to think of it Eddie or Wanda or Adrienne might have mentioned it in passing. ]
๐๐ฆ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐ด ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐๐ง ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ค๐ฉ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ด ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ค๐ณ๐ฐ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ'๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ.
๐๐ถ๐ญ๐ต๐ช๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฑ๐ด ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐บ๐ฑ๐ช๐ค๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ. ๐๐ฏ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ข๐จ๐ฆ.
They're very common in my world. People are encouraged to date around, find a person they actually want to be with for their lives, or numerous someones, in some cases. Relationships and love are very messy, half of marriages end in divorce, but people keep looking for it anyway.
So does that mean you haven't had one?
So does that mean you haven't had one?
๐๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ฎ...๐ ๐จ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ง๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ด ๐ข ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฑ.
๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ต๐ณ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ. ๐๐ฐ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ด ๐ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ณ๐ช๐ฐ๐ถ๐ด. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ข ๐ข๐ง๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ.
๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ต๐ณ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ. ๐๐ฐ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ด ๐ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ณ๐ช๐ฐ๐ถ๐ด. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ข ๐ข๐ง๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ.
๐๐ง ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ! ๐๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ'๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต ๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ. ๐๐บ ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ช๐ด ๐จ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ช๐ต ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ง๐ข๐ฎ๐ช๐ญ๐บ'๐ด ๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ๐บ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ช๐ฃ๐ช๐ญ๐ช๐ต๐ช๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ช๐ต. ๐๐ง ๐ ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐บ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ช๐ญ ๐ฉ๐ฆ'๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ฑ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐'๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ถ๐ช๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฌ.
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ง๐ถ๐ฏ. ๐ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฃ๐ญ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ช๐ง ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ณ.
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ง๐ถ๐ฏ. ๐ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฃ๐ญ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐บ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ช๐ง ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ข๐ณ.
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I had a whole plan with James where we were going to go to law school together and then probably get married afterward, and I hope he did find that with someone else.
Have you considered dating anyone around here? I guess I can't really see marrying here, considering all the uncertainty, but it's not like life is certain anywhere.
Have you considered dating anyone around here? I guess I can't really see marrying here, considering all the uncertainty, but it's not like life is certain anywhere.
๐๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ด๐ต๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต? ๐๐ข๐ธ ๐ด๐ค๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ญ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ณ๐ช๐ข๐จ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ด.
๐ ๐จ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐...๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ?
๐ ๐จ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐...๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ?
Law school is out since I can't do it here and I can't do it at home anymore, I have other responsibilities. But I'd love to get married some day, yeah.
Oh? That's great! Is it super private or can I ask for details?
Oh? That's great! Is it super private or can I ask for details?
๐ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฑ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ด ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ, ๐๐ถ๐ญ๐ช๐ข. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต'๐ด ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ญ๐ฅ.
(๐๐ญ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ค๐ณ๐ฆ๐ต๐ญ๐บ, ๐'๐ฅ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ช๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ (๏ฝฅฯ<)โ)
[ There's a pause. ]
๐๐ฐ! ๐๐ฐ, ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ช๐ท๐ข๐ต๐ฆ. ๐ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต...๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ช๐ด. ๐๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ต๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ต. ๐'๐ฎ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฑ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐๐ญ๐ข๐ถ๐ฅ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐๐บ๐ญ๐ท๐ข๐ช๐ฏ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ.
[ And kissing Alucard on the side - but that doesn't feel like quite an established thing that she's ready to speak to without speaking to Alucard about it first. ]
(๐๐ญ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ค๐ณ๐ฆ๐ต๐ญ๐บ, ๐'๐ฅ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ช๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ (๏ฝฅฯ<)โ)
[ There's a pause. ]
๐๐ฐ! ๐๐ฐ, ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ช๐ท๐ข๐ต๐ฆ. ๐ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต...๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ช๐ด. ๐๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ต๐ข๐ญ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ต. ๐'๐ฎ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฑ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐๐ญ๐ข๐ถ๐ฅ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐๐บ๐ญ๐ท๐ข๐ช๐ฏ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ'๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ.
[ And kissing Alucard on the side - but that doesn't feel like quite an established thing that she's ready to speak to without speaking to Alucard about it first. ]
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