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Hilda Valentine Goneril ([personal profile] theidlemaiden) wrote2022-11-26 05:11 pm
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-14 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
That was because I was trying to be good, because you were very, very drunk and not thinking clearly and if I let myself crawl into that bathtub with a very wet and naked you, we weren’t going to be getting out of there for a long, long time.

[ That sentence ends with his voice dropping an octave into a low, husky growl as he rolls her over onto her back again, pinning her down onto the mattress beneath him as he cages her in. His lips don’t move away from hers, however. In fact, he deepens the kiss now that he has her under him once more. ]

And right now I’m having a very hard time remembering why I was trying to behave myself in the first place.
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-14 09:26 pm (UTC)(link)
I’m going to remind you that you said that in the morning, when you come back to your senses.

[ His lips quirk into a smirk against her own, even as he catches her hands and pins them above her head. If only to keep her from wiggling so much - not that it seems to be very effective as she wraps her legs about his waist and tries to drag him down against the enticing heat of her - very naked - body. There’s no way to hide the way he’s hardened beneath his boxers as he half-collapses atop her, pinning her beneath his weight now. He gives a strained groan against her lips when her squirming only emphasizes that even more. ]

Tell me what you thought about.
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Will they? Won’t they? WHO KNOWS

[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-14 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He gives a low strained groan, both at the rock of her hips up against his length and the bite of her teeth against his throat - something he doesn’t mind in the least. She can leave as many marks on him as her little heart desires and he wouldn’t utter a single complaint. ]

I wasn’t sure how much longer I could keep my identity a secret. And I didn’t want to upset you if you found out and weren’t happy about it. I didn’t want to ruin your night.

[ She’d seemed happy enough to indulge with a stranger and he’d been afraid to find out if that would have changed, had she known it was him beneath that mask. ]
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-14 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ At that quiet confession, he releases his grip on her wrists in order to slide his hands back down to cup to either side of her face. ]

I should have told you. I’m sorry I kept it a secret. I kept telling myself I didn't know for sure, but… I think that was just an excuse I was telling myself, even when I didn’t fully believe it either.
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-15 02:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Her soft regret prompts a slow, gentle kiss from him, lingering in the contact as one hand slides to cup against her jaw, tilting her face up towards him. ]

I shouldn’t have pushed you that night. I forgot myself for a bit, but to be fair, you’re very distracting.
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-15 06:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I don’t want you scared of this. Of me. That’s the last thing I want, Hilda.

[ There’s a soft note of regret in his own tone as he brushes a kiss against the tip of her nose. Leaning forward, he rests his forehead against her own again, even as one hand comes up to cup over hers, cradling it against his chest. He breathes out a quiet, uneasy sigh. ]

I don’t know how to do this. To do something more than just casual sex where there’s safety in it not meaning anything. I don’t want to hurt you when I fuck it up.
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-15 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He gives a soft, disbelieving laugh at that, his hand tightening slightly in his grip around her much smaller hand. His eyes slide shut again as he feels a pang of regret. Especially at her words, because it’s clear she understands why he’s holding back here.

He wishes he could be as optimistic as she was. It’s been a long time since he’d thought anything like that. He feels far too cynical for that now. ]


Sweetheart, I think you’re underestimating my singular talent of spectacularly fucking up just about anything I get my hands on. That reputation I had wasn’t just gossip when we were growing up. I’m no good at this. Pretty sure I bring bad luck to any relationship I even consider taking beyond casual. Not that there’ve been a lot of those, either.
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-15 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ If there’s anything more terrifying than allowing yourself to hope that a ‘chance to try’ would result in anything different that history repeating itself, Sylvain can’t think of it. Hope was more dangerous than any emotion he could allow himself to feel, and he’d forbidden that one along with all the others.

What was that line about doing the same thing but expecting different results leading to insanity? He didn’t think Hilda would appreciate that reminder right now, but he can’t help but think it all the same.

Giving himself a chance to try opened up a far darker void than Hilda realized, and one he never wanted to expose her to. Her or Claude. There was a reason he’d been struggling so stubbornly to keep emotions from getting involved here but he was beginning to suspect that these two were far more like those gravity wells Garrus had been telling him about. And he kept getting sucked deeper in no matter how hard he tried to keep himself free.

Plus, it as getting harder and harder to keep reminding himself why he was doing it in the first place.

But Hilda’s words had been a challenge, and he hasn’t changed enough that he’s not completely susceptible to one of those. Even beyond having a hard time denying her anything. So he gives a quiet exhale and presses one more kiss against her lips. ]


I promise I’ll try. I just hope I don’t make you regret it.
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-15 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His gaze drops to her outstretched pinky, because those are the last words he'd expected to ever hear come out of her mouth. He knew her well, knew that that admission was beyond anything she would normally make. It is this that finally nudges him over the edge into giving in to her, even as he reaches out and hooks his own pinky with hers. ]

I pinky swear.

[ ...Even if he feels a little silly in the process. ]
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-20 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ He lets her pull him down for a kiss and he goes willingly, caging her in with his body as he presses her down and captures her mouth. Deep and slow and lazy, his tongue teasing against her lips. One hand comes to tangle in her long hair, fingers working lightly at her scalp a moment before he tugs her head back and grins down at her ruefully. ]

I’m still not going to do anything you might end up hating me for in the morning when you’re sober again.
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-20 04:37 pm (UTC)(link)
You did.

[ His grin is fond and indulgent in response to that whine as he gazes down at her. ]

And if you remember enough of this conversation in the morning to tell me again, then we can do whatever you like. Deal?
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-21 02:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He blinks at her a moment while giving a very emphatic mental oh shit. ]

Uhh. It was a very spontaneous, spur-of-the-moment decision?
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[personal profile] philancer 2023-08-21 05:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Oh. This is. Awkward.

He makes a face, his nose scrunching up slightly before he leans in to kiss her again apologetically. ]


It was… sentimental. And technically I didn’t spend money on it, it was a gift. But if you would like to make me an additional one, I wouldn’t say no. I could put it in the other ear. Or maybe down the curve? What would look better?

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