[ The arched eyebrow and quiet sigh don't provide much context or an answer to her question. There's a brief pause before she can answer his question, occupied with pulling herself to her feet while trying to desperately recall anything else past puking on him.
That part is a little difficult though. Mortification creeps across her skin and by the time she's on her feet she's pressing a hand to her face as if that will somehow prevent him from seeing her embarrassment. Goddess her breath is awful. ]
I'm trying to get past the part where I puked on you. Please tell me I didn't actually puke on you.
[ The answer doesn't help and she lets out another whine into her hands. That seems to be enough though to nudge her memory a little further into the evening: he had carried her back here and she had somehow ended up naked in the bath if her still slightly damp hair is any indication.
Their voices are muddied and clouded like she can't quite grasp the actual words they had exchanged - but she does remember their lips on one another's which prompts another flare of heat to her cheeks along with a wash of guilt. ]
I'm sorry! I'll just - [ She'll just what? Leave? This is her room. Hand her rubs her face, before briefly pressing the heel of her palm into her eyes. ] I'll make it up to you somehow. I don't know why I drank that much in the first place.
[ His voice softens and turns fond as he sits up. Reaching out, he snags one of her wrists and tugs her back towards the bed. ]
You don’t have to make anything up to me. I’ve had worse nights. And you might not remember it, but we agreed on no more apologies last night. There’s been too many already.
[ Her feet skirt across the rug, half reluctant, half embarrassed about getting closer to someone that she had not only little recollection of sharing a bed with but had also puked on. Eventually her knees bump up against the bed.
Stubbornly her hand still remains over her face as she peeks out through her fingers at him. Even with most of her face hidden, the worried furrow on her brow is evident. ]
[ He informs her of this wryly as he gives one more persistent tug, intent on toppling her back down beside him. His lips quirk faintly as he watches her peek out at him from behind her fingers.
Yeah, this was what he'd been worried about. ]
I take it you don't remember much of last night after getting home, then?
[ There's a muffled noise of protest as she's tugged off her feet and onto the bed beside him. She's still not moving her hands though. There's no way he can make her.
It doesn't matter that she can make out the tiniest smile on his face, the question is enough to give her reason for pause. Like she's about to walk into something that she isn't prepared to walk into. Like she's forgotten something incredibly important but she can't for the life of her remember what. ]
A lot isn't very comforting. Neither is that question. [ There's a pause before she slowly lowers her hands, searching his face for something. ] Did I do something wrong?
[ He can’t help but chuckle at that, tucking her in against his chest and making sure the sheets are tucked securely around her. Which is a little late, considering they’d just spent the night in bed together like this. But he does at least still have his boxers on under his half of the blankets, even if that’s hard to tell from all the bared skin from the waist up. ]
Of course not. [ He brushes a light kiss against her brow as he drapes an arm around her waist, keeping her anchored there against him. Just so she can’t panic and run away again. ] And before you start worrying, we didn’t do anything, either. Other than coming in here to talk after your bath and then falling asleep, hence the… lack of clothing.
[ Her heart softens despite itself as he tucks her in and she has to catch herself before it melts any further. In hindsight, it's a silly thing to get embarrassed about considering the confirmation of a hazey bath time where it feels a lot like she had asked him to join her in it.
His reassurance only serves to dissolve some of her worry. Not that she thinks he's lying to her. It's not that. It's an already deep rooted anxiety that has set her skin crawling with dread at what she could have possibly said. ]
Are you going to tell me what we spoke about? [ There's a pause, a slight wrinkle of her nose, her eyes close as she struggles to recall - ] Was I crying to a horse?
[ She lets out a mortified wail, twisting around so she no longer has to look at him as another piece of last night clicks into place. Can she even apologize to a horse? Probably not. But she should probably go and apologize to Mags at the very least.
If there was any hope of her returning to the loft after this, it's certainly evaporated into thin air after that admission. There's a clear, despairing quality to in her voice as embarrassed tears prick at the corner of her eyes. ]
[ He just gives a fond laugh as he wraps his arms around her and tugs her back to cradle her against his chest. ]
Don’t fret, Princess. You’re just as adorable when deep in your cups as you are out of them. And I promise, Marshy and I won’t tell your deep dark secrets to a soul.
I'm fretting. It's easy for you to say when you weren't the drunk one.
[ His pointed avoidance of her question continues to drive her anxiety higher. Her cheeks burn with worry, embarrassment, nerves. All of this is quickly undoing whatever resolve she had tried to hard to instill in herself over the last several months, and guilt bubbles in her stomach.
Whatever wriggling in his arms is suddenly stilled as her hands go to lightly touch his forearms. ]
[ He feels those pangs of emotions and even though he’s not sure what they are or what’s causing them, he knows they’re definitely not positive ones.
He turns her around until she’s facing him again, cupping her chin between his fingers as he tips her head up towards him. ]
You don’t have to be upset. You didn’t do anything you’ll regret - I wouldn’t have let you. But we did talk. We talked about what had happened a bit. And what didn’t. And we talked about… us, a little.
[ There's protests at the tip of her tongue about how again, it's easy for him to say when he can remember everything from the night before. She trusts him, knows full well that he wouldn't do anything to hurt her intentionally or let her do anything she would regret. But that doesn't mean he knows what she might regret saying.
And the current state of affairs means that there's plenty that falls under that category.
His gentle redirection of her gaze means it falls on his face and the glint of gold and green in his ear. The admission about it being a memento for his date with Claude and how the man in question had bought it for him floods back and she feels her heart thud dully in her chest. Ah.
Suddenly she doesn't want to hear anymore. The smile on her face comes too late to be convincing but there it remains. ]
If that's all then... I guess I don't have anything to worry about like you said. [ Gently she tries to tug her chin away. ] I'm sorry I puked on you. I'll make it up to you for having to take care of me.
[ He watches her, trying to sift through what he was picking up from her. It was a little reminiscent of last night, but she’d been much more open in her feelings when she’d been drunk, than she was this morning.
Knowing she’d assumed the worst and not missing where her gaze had temporarily drifted, he keeps his fingers on her chin. ]
That’s not quite all. But considering you’re completely sober this morning. It means I can finally do this.
[ And then purposefully leans in close to kiss her slowly, his gaze never leaving hers as he does so. ]
[ Her plan had been to roll out of bed, get dressed and then leave which feels like it might have been her intention last night had sleep not claimed her first. When she says she'll make it up to him she means it - maybe she can drop off some groceries for him to make he and Claude something nice later. Or a new tea set, you could never have too many of those right?
But then the wrench named Sylvain is tossed directly in her plans again. When her chin isn't relinquished, there's a surprised look that crosses Hilda's face that only intensifies when Sylvain's lips encapsulate hers. Instinctively she leans into the familiar taste and feel of his lips before catching herself moments later. Pulling back to look at him, her eyes are still wide and confused. ]
What was that for? What do you mean now that I'm sober?
[ Sylvain is pretty sure his best talent is being the wrench in everyone’s well-laid plans.
He takes in her confused expression, lips quirking faintly as he brushes another whisper-light kiss at the corner of her lips. ]
Because I wanted to. And because I told you we wouldn’t do anything you might regret when you weren’t sober enough to remember it. That’s not a problem this morning.
[ It's hard for Hilda to believe that her drunk self hadn't tried to force herself upon Sylvian for a kiss especially if he had been kind enough to drag her all the way back to the loft. Then again, who she is, is quickly becoming a nebulous thing for even her to grasp and hold onto.
Joking aside, the word want still throws her for a loop. Why did he want to? Why would he want to when there's someone else? And for all of this talk about regret, she can't help but ask - ]
[ Her heart stutters again. Perhaps at the lip brush, perhaps at his words that she wants to be sincere and true. She pushes past the yearning hope to try and level set her own expectations and what he says he wants. ]
But I puked on you last night.
[ Even that sounds like a weak excuse to her own ears. She isn't even sure that she'd be so forgiving if the positions were swapped. Or rather, she isn't certain that she wouldn't be grossed out. There's the strongest urge to press her head into his chest - partly so she doesn't have to see him but also for the comfort it provides.
But because she's being held there by his gentle hand all she can do is sigh and close her eyes. ]
I don't want you saying something you don't mean. And you shouldn't be wasting your energy on me. [ Her hand snakes up between them, brushing lightly against the earring before gently cupping his face. ] You should focus on someone else.
Trust me. [ His dry tone lingers as he frees her chin long enough to tweak a lock of her hair. Then he tugs her close again, wrapping her up in his arms once more. He rests his chin atop her head as he holds her. ] I’ve had nights end on much worse notes. That didn’t even make the top ten. There was no bloodshed, no angry relatives, no escaping out of a window. A little bit of extra laundry isn’t a hardship.
And besides. It isn’t up to you to decide where I get to spend my energy, because I definitely don’t see it as a waste. [ Where does she even get these ideas? He’s positive he’s never implied anything of the sort. ] I have more than enough focus to go around.
[ He reaches up to catch her hand in his, threading their fingers together. ] And oh, yeah. Just in case you forgot that part, too, you promised to make me an earring. And I’m holding you to that.
[ He's regaled her with stories of close calls, scaling out windows in the dead of night or just as dawn was breaking as someone came bursting through doors demanding to know what he was doing in bed with someone. It's never failed to delight her and it doesn't fail to draw the corners of her lips upwards now despite the conflicting feelings whirling inside of her.
And again, despite the doubt that stirs in her heart at his words, she allows herself to melt into his embrace. Instinctively she moves to wrap her arms around him - but before she can he's tangling their fingers together.
It's difficult to hide her bewilderment and confusion. ]
When did I say I was going to make you an earring? You already have one.
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He tries to ignore the pang he feels at her words. At the look she shoots him. He’d figured this might be the case. ]
How much of last night do you remember?
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That part is a little difficult though. Mortification creeps across her skin and by the time she's on her feet she's pressing a hand to her face as if that will somehow prevent him from seeing her embarrassment. Goddess her breath is awful. ]
I'm trying to get past the part where I puked on you. Please tell me I didn't actually puke on you.
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[ That makes it better, right? ]
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Their voices are muddied and clouded like she can't quite grasp the actual words they had exchanged - but she does remember their lips on one another's which prompts another flare of heat to her cheeks along with a wash of guilt. ]
I'm sorry! I'll just - [ She'll just what? Leave? This is her room. Hand her rubs her face, before briefly pressing the heel of her palm into her eyes. ] I'll make it up to you somehow. I don't know why I drank that much in the first place.
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[ His voice softens and turns fond as he sits up. Reaching out, he snags one of her wrists and tugs her back towards the bed. ]
You don’t have to make anything up to me. I’ve had worse nights. And you might not remember it, but we agreed on no more apologies last night. There’s been too many already.
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Stubbornly her hand still remains over her face as she peeks out through her fingers at him. Even with most of her face hidden, the worried furrow on her brow is evident. ]
What else did I apologize for?
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[ He informs her of this wryly as he gives one more persistent tug, intent on toppling her back down beside him. His lips quirk faintly as he watches her peek out at him from behind her fingers.
Yeah, this was what he'd been worried about. ]
I take it you don't remember much of last night after getting home, then?
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It doesn't matter that she can make out the tiniest smile on his face, the question is enough to give her reason for pause. Like she's about to walk into something that she isn't prepared to walk into. Like she's forgotten something incredibly important but she can't for the life of her remember what. ]
A lot isn't very comforting. Neither is that question. [ There's a pause before she slowly lowers her hands, searching his face for something. ] Did I do something wrong?
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Of course not. [ He brushes a light kiss against her brow as he drapes an arm around her waist, keeping her anchored there against him. Just so she can’t panic and run away again. ] And before you start worrying, we didn’t do anything, either. Other than coming in here to talk after your bath and then falling asleep, hence the… lack of clothing.
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His reassurance only serves to dissolve some of her worry. Not that she thinks he's lying to her. It's not that. It's an already deep rooted anxiety that has set her skin crawling with dread at what she could have possibly said. ]
Are you going to tell me what we spoke about? [ There's a pause, a slight wrinkle of her nose, her eyes close as she struggles to recall - ] Was I crying to a horse?
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Yes, yes you were. You and Marshy were having very deep philosophical discussions when I found you.
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[ She lets out a mortified wail, twisting around so she no longer has to look at him as another piece of last night clicks into place. Can she even apologize to a horse? Probably not. But she should probably go and apologize to Mags at the very least.
If there was any hope of her returning to the loft after this, it's certainly evaporated into thin air after that admission. There's a clear, despairing quality to in her voice as embarrassed tears prick at the corner of her eyes. ]
Tell me what else we spoke about right now.
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Don’t fret, Princess. You’re just as adorable when deep in your cups as you are out of them. And I promise, Marshy and I won’t tell your deep dark secrets to a soul.
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[ His pointed avoidance of her question continues to drive her anxiety higher. Her cheeks burn with worry, embarrassment, nerves. All of this is quickly undoing whatever resolve she had tried to hard to instill in herself over the last several months, and guilt bubbles in her stomach.
Whatever wriggling in his arms is suddenly stilled as her hands go to lightly touch his forearms. ]
Please tell me what I said.
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He turns her around until she’s facing him again, cupping her chin between his fingers as he tips her head up towards him. ]
You don’t have to be upset. You didn’t do anything you’ll regret - I wouldn’t have let you. But we did talk. We talked about what had happened a bit. And what didn’t. And we talked about… us, a little.
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And the current state of affairs means that there's plenty that falls under that category.
His gentle redirection of her gaze means it falls on his face and the glint of gold and green in his ear. The admission about it being a memento for his date with Claude and how the man in question had bought it for him floods back and she feels her heart thud dully in her chest. Ah.
Suddenly she doesn't want to hear anymore. The smile on her face comes too late to be convincing but there it remains. ]
If that's all then... I guess I don't have anything to worry about like you said. [ Gently she tries to tug her chin away. ] I'm sorry I puked on you. I'll make it up to you for having to take care of me.
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Knowing she’d assumed the worst and not missing where her gaze had temporarily drifted, he keeps his fingers on her chin. ]
That’s not quite all. But considering you’re completely sober this morning. It means I can finally do this.
[ And then purposefully leans in close to kiss her slowly, his gaze never leaving hers as he does so. ]
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But then the wrench named Sylvain is tossed directly in her plans again. When her chin isn't relinquished, there's a surprised look that crosses Hilda's face that only intensifies when Sylvain's lips encapsulate hers. Instinctively she leans into the familiar taste and feel of his lips before catching herself moments later. Pulling back to look at him, her eyes are still wide and confused. ]
What was that for? What do you mean now that I'm sober?
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He takes in her confused expression, lips quirking faintly as he brushes another whisper-light kiss at the corner of her lips. ]
Because I wanted to. And because I told you we wouldn’t do anything you might regret when you weren’t sober enough to remember it. That’s not a problem this morning.
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Even if I have awful morning breath?
[ It's hard for Hilda to believe that her drunk self hadn't tried to force herself upon Sylvian for a kiss especially if he had been kind enough to drag her all the way back to the loft. Then again, who she is, is quickly becoming a nebulous thing for even her to grasp and hold onto.
Joking aside, the word want still throws her for a loop. Why did he want to? Why would he want to when there's someone else? And for all of this talk about regret, she can't help but ask - ]
What if you regret wanting to?
[ Wanting her in whatever capacity that means? ]
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[ His voice is a dry drawl, because self-awareness has never been one of his weak points.
But he brushes his thumb over her lip as he holds her gaze. ]
You? You’re never going to fall anywhere close to the “regret” list.
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But I puked on you last night.
[ Even that sounds like a weak excuse to her own ears. She isn't even sure that she'd be so forgiving if the positions were swapped. Or rather, she isn't certain that she wouldn't be grossed out. There's the strongest urge to press her head into his chest - partly so she doesn't have to see him but also for the comfort it provides.
But because she's being held there by his gentle hand all she can do is sigh and close her eyes. ]
I don't want you saying something you don't mean. And you shouldn't be wasting your energy on me. [ Her hand snakes up between them, brushing lightly against the earring before gently cupping his face. ] You should focus on someone else.
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And besides. It isn’t up to you to decide where I get to spend my energy, because I definitely don’t see it as a waste. [ Where does she even get these ideas? He’s positive he’s never implied anything of the sort. ] I have more than enough focus to go around.
[ He reaches up to catch her hand in his, threading their fingers together. ] And oh, yeah. Just in case you forgot that part, too, you promised to make me an earring. And I’m holding you to that.
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And again, despite the doubt that stirs in her heart at his words, she allows herself to melt into his embrace. Instinctively she moves to wrap her arms around him - but before she can he's tangling their fingers together.
It's difficult to hide her bewilderment and confusion. ]
When did I say I was going to make you an earring? You already have one.
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[ He answers around a hum, one arm wrapped around her waist. His other hand holds hers, his thumb rubbing absent circles against her knuckles. ]
You promised you were going to make me one just from you.
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