[ Except maybe feeling like her head was in a constant fog and trying to piece together everything that had happened. Fortunately (or unfortunately) she's using that and checking up on her friends as an excuse to put off thinking how she feels about it.
Thankfully nothing inherently bad had happened between she and Kyle that she could recall. ]
[ It's all in jest of course. But it does give her something to think about - all of that terrifying responsibility that has been placed on their shoulders again. ]
I don't know that I want to talk about it so much as I feel like I should now.
[ She once gave him a little handmade gift in the shape of a dog. He still has it. But it feels strange to receive gifts like that when the people giving them don't know the full story. ]
We were separated when we were young, after our parents died, and taken in by the church. They did something to her that changed her, she couldn't leave the place they kept her.
When she escaped, she was able to possess a dog. She said she was happy.
[ Chasing squirrels, and being able to feel the sun again. ]
[ When he says that she's about to interject. Tell him that she really does mean that they don't have to discuss it if they don't want to - because as someone who skirts around issues all the time, she would understand.
But words begins to fill the space in front of her and she quiets. ]
𝘒𝘺𝘭𝘦, 𝘐 -
[ She doesn't know quite what to say to that, and can't even begin to fathom the horrors that might have happened to Rousma or how Kyle could feel about it. Heat rises to her cheeks at the thought that she had gifted him a small dog and how ignorant that had been of her. ]
[ He imagines accusation in those questions. He can't blame her. ]
There's no church left. I only serve my God.
[ His feelings about the fall of the Payshmura remain conflicted, even now. Even after everything they did to him and his family. It's hard not to miss the world that you know, even if you hated so much of it. Even if you know this way is better. ]
[ She had been so blind to everything that the church had done in Fodlan - although truthfully, she hadn't really cared to look because it had served her life in many ways. ]
[ It's only now that they've been gods that she understands that the church is often just a body made by man whereas gods are well, gods. But her point stands. ]
Men are only men. They claimed to speak for Parfir, but they didn't.
She did. I may have mentioned once I experienced different timelines. She survived in one. She's not around anymore in the other.
[ The one that he arrived from. He doesn't even know if she still lives in that other timeline, if it survived whatever accident he caused when forcing his way through the White Space. He likes to think she did, and she found some happiness in freedom. ]
[ He has said before, he's glad Viktor has her for a friend. ]
We talked briefly. We'll talk again next month.
[ He doesn't want to admit much more. This might be where he teases Hilda about still being madly in love with her, as is their usual game, but this time he doesn't. ]
Eight hundred years is a long time to spend with anyone, I think.
But I know what you mean about not wanting to assume anything about what happens now, after all of that. It's hard, not knowing. Do you think one of them will bring it up to talk about, or will it have to be you?
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couple of weeks after they're back from the future
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[ Except maybe feeling like her head was in a constant fog and trying to piece together everything that had happened. Fortunately (or unfortunately) she's using that and checking up on her friends as an excuse to put off thinking how she feels about it.
Thankfully nothing inherently bad had happened between she and Kyle that she could recall. ]
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[ While he's watching so many people around him fall apart. ]
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𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘵 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘪𝘵. 𝘐 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦. [ She should probably be really mad, actually. ] 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵.
𝘋𝘪𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨?
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[ Like his dog. ]
You don't have to hold onto any of it if you don't want to. If it's really a possible future - there are many, many possible futures.
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[ It's making her wonder. ]
...𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘥𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘺. 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘐'𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 - 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴. 𝘌𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰.
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I don't want to live forever either. But if our connection is what keeps the Singularity stable, and that keeps every world safe
I don't know.
[ If this is what's needed of him, if this is Parfir's will, then what else can he do?
He won't ask anyone else to feel the same way, though. ]
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[ It's all in jest of course. But it does give her something to think about - all of that terrifying responsibility that has been placed on their shoulders again. ]
𝘞𝘦𝘭𝘭, 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 - 𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘐𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴. 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵, 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵'𝘴 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘰.
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I don't know that I want to talk about it so much as I feel like I should now.
[ She once gave him a little handmade gift in the shape of a dog. He still has it. But it feels strange to receive gifts like that when the people giving them don't know the full story. ]
We were separated when we were young, after our parents died, and taken in by the church. They did something to her that changed her, she couldn't leave the place they kept her.
When she escaped, she was able to possess a dog. She said she was happy.
[ Chasing squirrels, and being able to feel the sun again. ]
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But words begins to fill the space in front of her and she quiets. ]
𝘒𝘺𝘭𝘦, 𝘐 -
[ She doesn't know quite what to say to that, and can't even begin to fathom the horrors that might have happened to Rousma or how Kyle could feel about it. Heat rises to her cheeks at the thought that she had gifted him a small dog and how ignorant that had been of her. ]
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘤𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦? 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘳?
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There's no church left. I only serve my God.
[ His feelings about the fall of the Payshmura remain conflicted, even now. Even after everything they did to him and his family. It's hard not to miss the world that you know, even if you hated so much of it. Even if you know this way is better. ]
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𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘵, 𝘒𝘺𝘭𝘦. 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘸𝘰.
[ It's only now that they've been gods that she understands that the church is often just a body made by man whereas gods are well, gods. But her point stands. ]
𝘋𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘳?
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Men are only men. They claimed to speak for Parfir, but they didn't.
She did.
I may have mentioned once I experienced different timelines. She survived in one.
She's not around anymore in the other.
[ The one that he arrived from. He doesn't even know if she still lives in that other timeline, if it survived whatever accident he caused when forcing his way through the White Space. He likes to think she did, and she found some happiness in freedom. ]
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[ There's a tinge of disappointment in those words. But ultimately she can't say she's surprised. ]
𝘋𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘦𝘳?
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No. I had to leave her.
I guess you must know about Viktor's plan to figure out the Summoning ritual, to give everyone a choice?
[ They had talked around this once before, a while ago. ]
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[ And those were places she was coming to realize that she'd do anything to protect. ]
𝘐 𝘥𝘰. 𝘉𝘶𝘵, 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘭𝘺, 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥, 𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘨𝘰 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘧𝘢𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘱 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.
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You'll keep looking out for him over there?
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𝘐𝘴 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘸𝘰? 𝘏𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘦𝘵?
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We talked briefly. We'll talk again next month.
[ He doesn't want to admit much more. This might be where he teases Hilda about still being madly in love with her, as is their usual game, but this time he doesn't. ]
What about you and your men?
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𝘞𝘦'𝘳𝘦...𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥? 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬? 𝘞𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯'𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘺𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘵.
[ Realizing how unreassuring that is she's quick to explain herself. ]
𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘶𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘸. 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦, 𝘐'𝘮 𝘢𝘧𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘩𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦.
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Eight hundred years is a long time to spend with anyone, I think.
But I know what you mean about not wanting to assume anything about what happens now, after all of that. It's hard, not knowing. Do you think one of them will bring it up to talk about, or will it have to be you?
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𝘐'𝘥 𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘮𝘦. 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘦𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳.
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I know well enough from Claude, but I guess I can't really judge.
[ He's not much different. Sorry about all the men in your life, Hilda. ]
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[ Even if she's oddly quiet about her own feelings. It really doesn't help things when the men in her life are the way they are. ]
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘐'𝘮 𝘨𝘭𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘝𝘪𝘬𝘵𝘰𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 - 𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴.
[ Speaking of other people's love... ]
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[ He doesn't know what else to say about that, so he'll just leave it there... ]